No 'Blurred Lines'

I have been with the same guy. Sometimes you just don't see certain things. Maybe tunnel vision?  When I met him, he was on unemployment. (Ladies that's a flag.)  I didn't think anything of it. His family and friends always say "He Aint Shit." He keeps saying we have to get through it or "don't worry I will make something happen." 

Well I see it now!

Since his unemployment ran out in 2010, he has only worked at a few temp services. In 2011, he worked about 6 days. In 2012, he worked about 4 months. Last year he worked a total of 80 days. In the last 6 months he worked 3 damn days. Now I am over annoyed. 

I do understand the economy is not doing good at all. I feel like I am being dragged through the mud because he is looking for the perfect job. 

He just sounds so incompetent. Bills are piling up and he has not bought in but $180. Well... We live in New Jersey and the cost of living is extremely high. Property taxes through the roof. Car insurance expensive as hell. As far as food goes, we cant but good food because it is so expensive. It's almost feels like getting hand me down food. What can you do? 

Yesterday I got another letter of disbelief. I cried the whole day. I just feel like I am not supposed to be alive. I got a letter from Social Security stating I had to pay more money for my premiums. I don't mind paying my fair share. They were taking an additional $200 monthly. I am SO hoping there is some glitch. Anyway... down to $580 to pay all my bills. 

I pay for food, water, gas, sewage, and electricity. For starters, PSE&G charges $0.80 per therm. Typically you will use about 240 therms in a months time. Then they charge a delivery charge that is about 33% less in price then what you actually used. The water company also charge a delivery fee.